order sought

"putting a blanket on darkness"

I keep trying to remember to put the hammer back on the hook where it goes so when I need it again I'll know where it is. I'll know where it is while I am looking for my car keys. I'll know the hammer is there while I am trying to get my hands on last July's Mastercard bill that is somehow not in the file with all the others. I will see that hammer while I am looking for a matching pair of black socks. I am working to maintain order and then a big limb falls in the yard and lays there looking at me saying, "yes you need to pick me up, cut me up, stack me neatly with all the other wood that has fallen before. Keep this yard in order".

Okay, I have a lot of trouble with organization, not just spelling it but living with it. I keep trying, but it just becomes stress. There is the stress from things being out of order and the stress of trying to keep order. I keep trying to remind myself to just do the best I can. Organization after all is an illusion and that no matter how much structure and preparation I try and put into place there is always a chance things will go in a direction I had not intended.

The image above is an example of letting things go where they will. This is a photograph taken early one rainy evening as I was sitting at a traffic light. I picked up my camera/phone an while moving the camera (on purpose) took a picture. Put the camera down and drove on. Later another evening I dropped the images into my computer, found this particular one and started playing with it. Mostly it is over saturation of color and tone change that created the image. The swirls are the lights from the cars in the on coming lane and the rest I think is dash board and door frame, who knows?

So I claim it as art, my right as someone with feeling, and give it a name, and post it for the world to view. I guess even though I have trouble keeping my life in order, by capturing random fragments of time and claiming them as art I am some kind of organization freak. Aren't we all? 

Jeff giving order to chaos