notion #14

When I look out
I see what is there,
but I also see the other "theres"
I bring with me.
Into each moment comes so many fragments
of moments that have come before.
This leaves me with an increasingly complicated present
That I am trying to make clear,
But I do love the beauty of the confusion.

Jeff lookin'

the place

I have seen the place

where I am everything.

Where I have no need of a name

to define my being.

For here

I have shed the self

and I am content

to be part of all the moving.

With in a fragment of time

I am but a particle

moved by wind and rain.

In my moment

I will dance and then fall.

The self I worked to be

released.

Somehow here

I am good with this.

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Took these photos last summer on the north rim of the Grand Canyon. I did not even see the color spectrum until I was home and gazing at the photo. Notice how from the distance forward (in the above Photo) it goes from blue to purple to reds and then the yellow foreground.

I also find humor in writing about surendering individulizm in a blog that defines me as an individual.

Jeff diggin' it all

Words are too direct

I have been playing with words mixed into my images. I am not sure if I like this. It gives the image my feeling and too clearly directs the viewer to my thought instead of allowing them to have their own feeling inspired by the image. Although I guess it is a different level because the words also evoke feeling and yet I still feel like it is me clearly starting the conversation. I will keep playing with this. I might try not ordering the words so clearly.

Now a few words on the statement in the above image. This comes out of thinking on people needing to humanize the creator. My feeling is we as humans are often assuming this creator has the same perspective as we do. That god is happy when we are good and sad when we hurt one another.  I think (or do I mean feel) this is our human need to be one with God, on the same page. I feel God is bigger than this, there may even be levels of emotion that we cannot comprehend in this level of existence we call life. Most of all our life experiences are based on a time frame that the creator moves outside of. Birth, death, love, jealousy, revenge, triumph, greed, etc. are all part of our experience, not the creators. What god is getting from this we can only imagine, even then I belive it is way beyond our imagining. That does not mean I won't keep trying to imagine.
God holds all this and if you want to humanize it you can say, "in his hands" (then the whole gender thing is there too). I could ramble on, but I am going to stop for now. Below is some self talk. This is what I keep saying to my self to get through each day.

Work at not being afraid,
know that you belong here
and that everyone and everything belongs here with you
and the gift you have been given is choice or free will
And that the creator loves you in a way that is
so far beyond human understanding
it leaves us all a bit confused,
and that's ok.
Forgive and forgive again...
"Do not be afraid" (Share your fears, paint, dance, write, sing, play, etc...)

Jeff talking to himself.

fragments off the phone

"New Light"

Here is a shot off my cell phone camera into a new light bulb. I love the ability to mess with the color.

"Bridge Fragment"

Shot this section of bridge and made it into something. I love parts of stuff. Details are so cool.

brake me down

am I more than the sum of my parts?

every fragment tells a story

of its roll in the big picture.

I'll tell you mine

if you tell me yours.

Jeff makin' stuff up